Right now i am posting this entry is because im feeling damn fucking pissed off. Beware, i will throw out vulgarities in this post.
We were supposed to have cycling session RIGHT now. Everyone was perfectly ok except suhaimi who texted me saying he cant make it. I took note of that. When it was 2am, not a single soul was at the designated meeting place. I thought i was going to be late cause i left house at 0200. When i reached there, they were not there. Its fine with me cause this is normal. So i thought to myself and waited awhile and they would definitely popped out like always. 20mins past and i cant stand it. I started summoning one by one. Tried several attempts but it was futile. So i decided to wait a little longer. When there were still not a single soul popping out, i decided to 'kirim salam'. bid goodbye (in translation) not in a polite but hostile manner. If you want to blame me, i dont think there is a reason for that. I called and sms not only once but many times. Still, no responds.
Look, history has repeat itself again. This has happened not only once, twice, thrice. I think i lost count already. Texted them beforehand not to put mobilephone on silent so that they would be contactable when im there too early or they are slightly late or vice versa. This kind of things i have emphasised so much on it. Seriously i cant take this 'game' anymore. I detest to the core empty promises. Those who know me should know this. Once a thing has been confirmed, it has to be executed. That's me. Don't like it, leave. Very easy. Dont test my patience. My patience is wearing thin already. In the end, i waited at the bus-stop like a stupid fool.
Wanna know something? IM FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW ALRIGHT. NO AMOUNT OF APOLOGIES WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. WANNA PLAY GAMES ON ME, TODAY IS YOUR DAY. RETRIBUTION WILL COME ALONG VERY SOON. I WILL PLAY THE SAME GAME BACK ON YOU VERY SOON. JUST WAIT.
After reading this, if your blood boils and you hate me TO THE CORE, so be it. Im not at fault. I did what i could within my means. I hope this post wont affect the friendship ties that we have built. This is just a post of rage. Dont take it too personal. But if you do, i cant say more. Im sure you hate to be 'served like this' sitting there like a fool when all are happily sleeping in their comfortable bed. Ponder over it. Give it a second thought. Fucking damn right! If history repeats itself one more time, thats it, I dont want to say much. Ok, as far as im concern, im being very mean. I know. I want you to put yourself in my shoe and know what it feels like to be sitting there like a fool at the ungodly hour of 0200 when earlier on, all are ok with the cycling session but in the end, back off. The feeling must be REALLY PLEASANT. Take care.
p/s i hope this post serves as a wake up call to those involved and i say THIS one more time, i hope it wont affect our close friendship ties that we have built all this while. think about it. Not gonna entertain to your msges.
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